For those who don't understand

I know that there will always be those people who do not understand. I was once one of them.

Why is she mourning a child she never really had? Why do they still cry? And years from now, they'll ask, why does she still celebrate and mourn her birthday? And they'll think, get over it already!!

I understand their thoughts and I understand their questions. Because like i said, I was once one of them. And the thing is, people will NEVER understand unless it happens to them. And because of that, I hope that nobody understands.

I may not ever get a birth certificiate for my darling Aurora Rose. But she lived. She lived inside me. She lived in our dreams. So many people had dreams for Aurora, and she lived inside each and every one of them. The camping trips we would take, the boat rides she would go on, my father teaching her to fish, swimming in my parents pool, Nick holding her and telling her all about Star Wars, Jason holding her hand as they cross the street, dancing with her at weddings, GG singing her "chickabookie" song, and all of the hugs and kisses and I love yous.

We have a daughter. That will never change. Because she is not here with us physcially, doesn't mean that she's not in our hearts. And I will never forget her. If you do not understand that, it's ok. I don't want you to understand.