Is this her way of coming through?

About a month ago, I went to see a psychic medium. I love psychics, but this was my first time with a medium.

It was a house party, and the first person she read was my aunt. My grandmother {GG}, came through first thing. And one of the first things my grandmother came through with, is that she had a little one with her, Aurora.

When it came time to read me, I asked about Aurora. One of the first things the medium asked me is if I had any dreams about Aurora. In which I told her I had only had one that I remembered. However, this got me thinking. Did she mention this thinking I had dreams of Aurora all of the time?

I do dream about something a lot, multiple times a week. I dream about pennies. Last night I dreamed that I was picking up penny after penny after penny. Usually in my dreams it's not just one penny, it's 10+ pennies all at a time. Could my dreaming of pennies be Aurora's way of dreaming about her? Even if it isn't, I love to dream about pennies because it makes me think of Aurora. It makes me feel how much love she is sending for me.

Penny #35 &36

Thank you so much for the 2 pennies today. I was shocked to see both of them together at the gas station as dad was pumping up the tires of our trailer. Did you mean one for dad? Or could that 2nd penny be from GG? Love you and wish you were going on vacation with us. I hope you would have loved camping as much as we all do.

Heaven must be having a party!

I've been putting off writing this for awhile. Maybe because I am not sure how to say this.

On July 5th, Aurora has a new family member with her in heaven. Her GG came to give her all of my hugs and kisses, as well as her own.

Aurora. I know I told you that you couldn't have your GG yet, but now that she is with you enjoy every moment with her. She gives great advice and always has the best kisses and hugs. Don't let her chicka bookie you too much. I hope you and GG have had a wonderful time in heaven so far. I can't wait until we can join you and see you again.

GG

My grandmother is in the hospital. She had fluid in her lungs and needed to go on a ventilator. While she's been in there, things seemed to get worse. After multiple tries, she's still on the ventilator, and the family is starting to make plans.

My grandmother, or as she is called to the great grand kids as GG (Great Grandma), is so full of spunk. Today, while things seemed to be at one of the worst.... she lectured me! My grandmother cannot speak because of the ventilator, but she lectured me.

Two of my cousins have young babies.... they're both under 1 years old (for the next two days anyways when the one turns one). It's been very difficult for me to be around them. Difficult for me to be around N, because he's still so small. And difficult for me to be around K, because he's so close to the age Aurora should be. I'm jealous. I'm bitter. So I tend to avoid them at all costs.

Today, my grandmother basically told me that I need to stop avoiding them. To do it for her. And she's right. I need to wear my big girl panties. They're not Aurora. I think that I've been avoiding them because it's easier for me. I also think because if I were to play with them or hold them... I'm afraid I'll feel very guilty. This is going to be very difficult for me, but I just need to rip off the band aid and do it. I need to do it for my grandmother.


And Aurora. You can't have your GG yet. I know you want her up with you, so she can love you, hug you and squeeze you. But we're not through with her yet here. I'm not going to allow you to have her yet. Do you understand? Mommy still needs her here, your grandmother does too. You can have her someday.... just not yet.