Sunday, April 21, 2013

Happy 3rd Birthday

Happy birthday darling! I cannot believe that it has been 3 years since we said hello and goodbye in the same breath.

I was grateful to have such wonderful and loving family around today to help us celebrate your birthday. While its not how we wanted to celebrate, because it doesn't seem right without you here, the day was still beautiful. All of our balloons went up without a problem. Well. Almost all. Aunt Jenns didn't go up, with your note at least. Her balloon flew without the note, but I know you read what she wrote.

Thank you darling for today. I hope to dream of you soon.

Sunday, April 14, 2013


This past Friday was another bunko night. The past couple of months, I've gotten my little signs.

And this month, grandma got a sign! I love the little things that make me smile. Thank you hun!

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Aurora Borealis

I have shared before about how seeing the Aurora Borealis with my father and my grandmother back in 1998 is where Aurora's namesake came from. I still remember that moment standing on the deck, my father was to my right, and I just thought out loud "I like that name; Aurora."

So tonight, there was a very good chance of seeing the Aurora's. I was following the forecasters very closely. And then really studying this picture that was going around.

We live in the "Fair" area, but are within an hour or two drive away from the "good" area. I realized going further south was not the best idea to see them.... but if south was the clear skies, than south it was.

So after Jason got out of work, we called up my sister-in-law and brother-in-law and wanted to see if they wanted to go with us to the Outlet Mall that is a little less than 2 hours away. Why not do a little shopping, have a good dinner and then try to see the Aurora Borealis?

The skies were so clear! Maybe one or two clouds in the sky. However, we could not see anything. Although a little bummed, we did have a fun time together. And as I said to my SIL, if I had stayed at home, that big "what if" would have hung over my head.

Someday I will see the Aurora Borealis again! I already said when I win the lottery i'm taking my father to Greenland, we'll stay there until we see it!

Monday, April 8, 2013


I was thinking of something the other night, and in no way, shape, or form do I want this to sound like I want this or welcome it.

Does your mind ever wander when you're riding in a car? Maybe for a split second you picture being slammed into by the car that swerved a bit in the lane next to you. And your mind just goes and you think about your death. You get scared, and thank whoever you believe in that it didn't happen.

I'm not afraid of dying anymore.

If death were to come to me soon, I would not be afraid. No, I am not done with my life here and there are still so many things I want to do. But I also have a life waiting for me in heaven as well. I have my daughter to hold and love and squeeze. I do not fear death for this reason and this reason only.

I work in a Muslim private school. One day I told one of my co-workers about Aurora. She had then mentioned how they believe when a child dies it is a free pass to heaven for the parent. (She said this much better, that actually brought tears to my eyes). I never not thought I'd make it into heaven. But I also watched my grandmother, a woman who had nothing to fear in my eyes, on her death bed fear that she wouldn't make it to heaven.

So if death were to come. I will not be afraid. Because my other life is waiting for me in heaven, and it'll always be there waiting for me to get there.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Penny #107

Thank you for the penny today in Uncle Timmy and Aunt Jenns driveway. It looked as though it had been there for awhile. The next time we go to their house will be on your birthday. I can't wait to celebrate your birthday. I cannot believe it'll be 3 years since that day. I love you sweetheart. With all of my heart.