Penny #118

Although I can't remember at this moment, I'm sure there was a penny or two that is not written in here. I've been slacking on the penny writing down. But I can assure you, I have not been slacking at the warm feeling I have when I find a penny!

There have been a few pennies that I have noticed, but had my hands full, or it was too out of the way to pick up. Well, that kind of was the case yesterday as well. Walking into work with my hands full there was a penny right outside the door. I ran into my one co-worker who really understands, and I told her. "There's a penny right outside the front door but I couldn't pick it up!" So she looked at me and said she would. We walked right back out and she grabbed it for me.

Thank you so much Aurora! And thank you so much to my friend who picked it up!

Penny #116 & #117

Thank you so much for the pennies babe! The one I found a while ago and never wrote about it in here. I'm sorry it took so long. The other one I found yesterday right before our family reunion. I'm glad I didn't change my mind about going to the grocery store for drinks before we headed on over to the reunion. I'm glad to know that you are near me for big family events such as this one. Love you babe.

Penny #115

Thank you do much for the penny today! It was do chance that the woman opened another checkout line, and asked me to go instead of the woman in front of me. Thank you so much babe! 

Penny #114

On Friday I decided to stop at a garage sale on my way to the grocery store. When leaving the sale, I found a penny in the driveway. It was old and blended in with the pavement. Thank you so much babe for that penny!

Penny #110, 111, 112 and 113

Thank you for the pennies this weekend. The one when I was helping Grandma in town, and the one at the ice cream store on the way home from our weekend away. I kept meaning to write it in here, just never got around to it.

Today when I could the first penny at the grocery store (I accidentally dropped my penny I was going to toss somewhere, and found the one you left me a few feet away!) I joked to myself that you just need to keep tossing pennies at me to get me to remember to write. Well, when I left the house later today, I found one in the parking lot outside the drug store! I knew then I HAD to write them down tonight! Although I would love if it you did keep throwing pennies at me anyways.

Penny #109

I almost forgot to write about the penny I found yesterday! I heard it drop too, from a mother/daughter behind us in the grocery store. So when I turned around, I looked too see if it was truly a penny. Thank you so much hun! I've been having dreams of pennies and dragonflies lately and I can't help but to think that they are you. I love you. 

Penny #108

Thank you for the penny today hun! Especially on Mother's Day. I've been telling myself that I am okay. I've been trying to show that I'm okay. But I'm really not. It's still hard. So thank you. I really needed it today. 

Happy 3rd Birthday

Happy birthday darling! I cannot believe that it has been 3 years since we said hello and goodbye in the same breath.

I was grateful to have such wonderful and loving family around today to help us celebrate your birthday. While its not how we wanted to celebrate, because it doesn't seem right without you here, the day was still beautiful. All of our balloons went up without a problem. Well. Almost all. Aunt Jenns didn't go up, with your note at least. Her balloon flew without the note, but I know you read what she wrote.

Thank you darling for today. I hope to dream of you soon.

Bunko

This past Friday was another bunko night. The past couple of months, I've gotten my little signs.

And this month, grandma got a sign! I love the little things that make me smile. Thank you hun!

Aurora Borealis

I have shared before about how seeing the Aurora Borealis with my father and my grandmother back in 1998 is where Aurora's namesake came from. I still remember that moment standing on the deck, my father was to my right, and I just thought out loud "I like that name; Aurora."

So tonight, there was a very good chance of seeing the Aurora's. I was following the forecasters very closely. And then really studying this picture that was going around.



We live in the "Fair" area, but are within an hour or two drive away from the "good" area. I realized going further south was not the best idea to see them.... but if south was the clear skies, than south it was.

So after Jason got out of work, we called up my sister-in-law and brother-in-law and wanted to see if they wanted to go with us to the Outlet Mall that is a little less than 2 hours away. Why not do a little shopping, have a good dinner and then try to see the Aurora Borealis?

The skies were so clear! Maybe one or two clouds in the sky. However, we could not see anything. Although a little bummed, we did have a fun time together. And as I said to my SIL, if I had stayed at home, that big "what if" would have hung over my head.

Someday I will see the Aurora Borealis again! I already said when I win the lottery i'm taking my father to Greenland, we'll stay there until we see it!

Death

I was thinking of something the other night, and in no way, shape, or form do I want this to sound like I want this or welcome it.

Does your mind ever wander when you're riding in a car? Maybe for a split second you picture being slammed into by the car that swerved a bit in the lane next to you. And your mind just goes and you think about your death. You get scared, and thank whoever you believe in that it didn't happen.

I'm not afraid of dying anymore.

If death were to come to me soon, I would not be afraid. No, I am not done with my life here and there are still so many things I want to do. But I also have a life waiting for me in heaven as well. I have my daughter to hold and love and squeeze. I do not fear death for this reason and this reason only.

I work in a Muslim private school. One day I told one of my co-workers about Aurora. She had then mentioned how they believe when a child dies it is a free pass to heaven for the parent. (She said this much better, that actually brought tears to my eyes). I never not thought I'd make it into heaven. But I also watched my grandmother, a woman who had nothing to fear in my eyes, on her death bed fear that she wouldn't make it to heaven.

So if death were to come. I will not be afraid. Because my other life is waiting for me in heaven, and it'll always be there waiting for me to get there.

Penny #107

Thank you for the penny today in Uncle Timmy and Aunt Jenns driveway. It looked as though it had been there for awhile. The next time we go to their house will be on your birthday. I can't wait to celebrate your birthday. I cannot believe it'll be 3 years since that day. I love you sweetheart. With all of my heart.

Penny #105 & #106

Last week I found a penny as I was coming out of the school I was teaching at. It was in the parking lot walk way, and to be honest it really didn't look like a penny. Something in me told me to investigate it, and I did!

Today, I found another penny as I was walking out of a different school I was teaching at. It was right near my car and I almost didn't park there.

Thank you my darling for both of the pennies. I love you!

Penny #104

When dad and I went to the grocery store this morning, I felt like I'd find a penny there. However, I didn't.

I had to return to the grocery store that evening for something we forgot and wanted for dinner. That's when I found the penny!

Thank you so much hun! It's been so Lon dice the last penny I found. I'm so happy to find one.